I have been at a halt lately, trying to figure out somehow to writesomething worth reading. I keep having multiple things happen one after another. Wondering if that ever stops or if its just the story of life maybe? Emotions have ran rampage lately here in my mind. This halt has sucked truly, I absolutely love blogging and giving back as much as possible. I have been scared of the future while missing out on what’s happening around me. I have some scars and I’ve seen some things but I’m here now. Organizing your thoughts while moving constantly and trying to readjust into your own form of a comfort zone is more difficult than I ever imagined. This chapter is closing and will be wrote about at a much later date, maybe?
This basically is how scattered my mind is, separating real and impossible things in my head at the moment. Slowly but surely a work in progress. What’s amazing is so much progress has been made. I haven’t felt as good as I’ve been feeling right now in a long time. Many things are going on for sure but on top of that is always a silver lining. Enjoying these little moments and calming the waves down and learning to swim with the waves life has to offer.
I’ve always been one of those people who gives every single person the benefit of the doubt until given a reason not to. Lately I’ve just been praying about things and situations and hoping that certain people in and out of my life understand that toxic situations for me can’t be handled like they use to. My body and mind is a Temple. And it must be treated that way, if we aren’t treating ourselves good. What good are we at the end of the day for our immediatehousehold family. I’ll answer that, we are no good all used up. Stress and anxiety are nothing new to me. This is another obstacle that I’ll overcome and come out so much stronger on the other side.
So August is a huge and busy month for us. We move to Maine! I absolutely love my new house waiting for me there! It's right next to Portsmouth New Hampshire, I can walk! We all know how much moving costs and stresses. It has driven me up a wall. I also start a new job tomorrow.. Working from home nonetheless which is scary for me. It's something new that I've never done.
Closing a chapter of my life here in Connecticut and moving is such a big deal for me as my anxiety kicks in full force. I've been lagging on blog posts but have had so much to say to you guys! I'll be blogging more very soon. Trying to adjust and move at the end of this month. I'm ready for September!
On that note, I've been ready to scream from all the stress. I am so proud though, I've kept going and I've kept my head up through all the rough rides life has to offer to get me to where I am now.
Today, I’ve been thinking and looking back at the past week. I was able to see my cousins who I missed so much! So happy to spend time with them when I get to. Finally got a starting date on my new job with Allstate! Which I’ll be working from home which is a whole new ball game for me and I couldn’t be more excited. I move in less than 34 days. I’ve been cleaning and cleaning and packing and more packing. I honestly never knew how many things I actually had! Back to my title, learn to let go.
Looking back at the past few months while starting my blog, I have been posting weekly. Sometimes daily, I’ve been trying so hard to keep new content up for you guys. My life has been chaotic and finally getting a second to breathe and put out a entry feels amazing. The past 3 months, I have had to LEARNto let go so many different things and obstacles that were out of my hands. Whether it was a toxic situation or things and certain situations that don’t make MEhappy. Trying to stay away from high anxiety situations which for anybody who has anxiety knows that’s basically impossible. I’ve now been trying to many different things and options and care more about ME. I always do whatever I can to make the other person happy in whatever situation I am in, and I now have started remembering that I am important, and I deservenot to be putdown or put in a situation I don’t wanna be in. Finally learningto just leave and let go of anything that I have to think more than 3 seconds on whether its good or bad for me. One of my friends tells me constantly that I need to not think twice about a bad situation and question whether it makes me happy or not. I am blessedfor the good people and situations I’ve been put in to get me where I am today. I am blessed. Letting go of bad situations and negative thoughts and people who only put me down. xoxo
This month is almost to a end, things change and people change. It’s incredible to see what every new month brings my family and friends. This next month will bring a big move to a new state all over again. I am excited and also nervous to start a new job before going. If you’re like me you feel bad and get super sad over losing friends and even worse family members. Time seems to go on no matter what current of life you are taking. I am excited to start a new current, which I think is my most favorite one of all. Not constantly doing for everybody else and doing for myself. The next few months look challenging but I’ve done worse and I know I’ll do great. Everything takes time. Today is a new day.
One thing I wanna touch on today. Priorities are so important. We tend to tell ourselves what we can do throughout the day and what we can’t. It’s all perspective! I only can touch on this subject enough to show how truly sad it can leave when some of us don’t leave time for things that might be the best thing for us or the thing that brings true happiness. If you could take five minutes out of your day to maybe get off your phone, or socialmedia in general. Than go do whatever makes you genuinly happy for a little amount of time. No matter what is said, you always have time for anything. It’s whether you make it a priority on your to do list. Now go do it!
So everybody has seen the new trend of the new technology we have here on this lovely little earth. I am starting a job that is strictly from home for a Insurance Company. I am so excited to start this new adventure. I think of all the things now possible today and it makes me happy. Earth is advancing in amazing ways. Of course with all the negativity in todays society due to elections and bad people and just all in all world problems. I am pretty happy to say I am trying to find the greatness in every day to day thing. I will be posting a few posts about working from home for this experience so that maybe my journey will help you. This is a hourly job Monday through Friday, but you are commuting to work by computer! I am genuinely so excited. Any comments, and wanna see anything reviewed? Let me know!