I normally don’t do entries like this one, but this week I came home from a vacation from Florida with my husband and I am more emotional than usual. It had been about two or three years since Marlon and I had been to Florida and not had something traumatic cause our appearance. I’ve been thinking about the road I’ve been on the past 4 years with him, it’s been a long bumpy road.
Tonight for the first time in a long time, I kneel’d down to pray. I found myself crying. Not because I was necessarily sad, or even angry. I cried from the overwhelming gratefulness I felt to be able to say, I made it. I could feel the biggest impact of three words… “I made it.” I had survived so many different obstacles that the world threw in our path. I’m not sure why I just had felt the overwhelming emotion of that saying, but I could say I successfully maintained my marriage, jobs, my fur baby and still am alive.
I know many people who haven’t made it to today, I know that the big picture I want is so clear today. For the first time it has made everything else seem so small. I constantly get so lost into one small problem that turns into a huge river of emotions that pushes me back 30 steps. For each day my depression won or my anxiety stopped me from being able to do something and I failed to realize that I was much stronger than both of them. He always had my back for me to fall and cry, or to be silent because I was disappointed in myself because I always wanted to be able to do more than I felt capable of. He kept me afloat, He kept me well, He kept me present. Even when I’d fall back onto the past. He’d bring me to today, which being married to somebody who has “days” is such a job in itself let alone a regular marriage. For that, I am so grateful.
To he who feels all my emotions, I love you more than anything. Thanks for always being my help and light through every dark tunnel and pursuing every single dream I have everyday. Even if I can’t say it out loud sometimes, I am grateful and love you every single day more and more.
Had so many feelings the past few weeks, I’ve felt like writing to y’all.
I’ve been working for HollisterCo since the beginning of November. Hence the little activity at A Hint of Koko. Which kinda has been bumming me out because I love giving y’all fresh content weekly.
Christmas is upon us, normally my favorite holiday of the year. This year has been bumming me out as I will be in Maine as we can’t budget a trip to Florida this year. We ended up getting a second car though before the new year started so I completed a big goal of ours so not all bad news!
Also, I am making a paw balm for the snow we’ve had to protect my Juno’s paws for this winter! Super excited to make it and try it out, I know it’ll feel a million times better on her cute big feet. Which I’ll be posting for you guys in case you wanted to make some! 🙂
Other than that, Nothing much besides being freezing cold and anxious. Blessed beyond measures though, Every step I take is a step forward even if I am pushed back sometimes. #blessed #staytuned
I have been at a halt lately, trying to figure out somehow to writesomething worth reading. I keep having multiple things happen one after another. Wondering if that ever stops or if its just the story of life maybe? Emotions have ran rampage lately here in my mind. This halt has sucked truly, I absolutely love blogging and giving back as much as possible. I have been scared of the future while missing out on what’s happening around me. I have some scars and I’ve seen some things but I’m here now. Organizing your thoughts while moving constantly and trying to readjust into your own form of a comfort zone is more difficult than I ever imagined. This chapter is closing and will be wrote about at a much later date, maybe?
This basically is how scattered my mind is, separating real and impossible things in my head at the moment. Slowly but surely a work in progress. What’s amazing is so much progress has been made. I haven’t felt as good as I’ve been feeling right now in a long time. Many things are going on for sure but on top of that is always a silver lining. Enjoying these little moments and calming the waves down and learning to swim with the waves life has to offer.
I have been starting my soap business from home. Practicing what products I’ll be releasing has been hard. I have so many ideas, this will definitely take a minute but here is one I’ve been thinking of sharing with you guys.
Lavender Infused Bubble Bar
P.S- All my products are vegan and never tested on animals or any fur creatures of any kind.
These bubble bars, create a bubble bath infused with with rich oils and lavender. On top of that are created with such good products that are most products I use are even edible! Not that you’d wanna eat these! Create a colored relaxing bath with these. My friends who have tried these are obsessed and already asking me to make more. I’m happy with the results.
These past two months have been crazy, Sometimes it feels like I haven’t even had one second to myself. I even added to my list by signing up to sell a amazing product that sells itself called Nerium. I am so obsessed with it. I am trying to narrow it down to only having one job. I currently have two now. Some people think certain things about people who work from home. I love it, I also still am contributing to my household. I will be revamping A Hint of Koko within this month. New great things are coming and I hope you guys stick around to see all the fun!
So one of my bestfriends started selling a skin product called Nerium. I decided why not, I am all about
No Animal Testing
products! So I decided since it’s so hard to find good skin care to try it. I can say after waking up this morning with such a soft complexion and face. I gotta buy this stuff. The best part is I get to help a friend and it’s so amazing because I genuinely like the product. (Was nervous I wouldn’t). So yes, I am a happy camper. If you wanna try a amazing new skin care regimen that is so worth it. I’m so serious, I’ve been looking for something since it seems like forever. Leave a response! I can give you her information! I am becoming obsessed with this stuff!
I’ve always been one of those people who gives every single person the benefit of the doubt until given a reason not to. Lately I’ve just been praying about things and situations and hoping that certain people in and out of my life understand that toxic situations for me can’t be handled like they use to. My body and mind is a Temple. And it must be treated that way, if we aren’t treating ourselves good. What good are we at the end of the day for our immediatehousehold family. I’ll answer that, we are no good all used up. Stress and anxiety are nothing new to me. This is another obstacle that I’ll overcome and come out so much stronger on the other side.